Hi everybody..

My dear friends,this letters are because I am asking for help,I am retired of my blog,and I want you to know why,and maybe you can help me..
It's been a year ago,I am living a hard situation,I can't focus,create as i want to,I am failing in all my stuff,my friends,this is because I have this anxiety,hypochondria and fears...
Every morning I wake up with this fear to the future,to the present,I feel one day one doctor will tell me i am sick,all day I can be thinking in diseases ,this is the way I live my days....My days are so horrible,I try to get better,I bake,I cook,I craft.....
In my past I could feel fine,I could feel the same as now but i controled it,,but the past year was a year full of hard times,several scares that fortunly all was discarted....I figth trying to go on,I am not a good friend because I am locked in my world of fear....this is why I stop create cards,and living with joy...I do have things to live with joy,perfect marriage,my family complete,in two weeks my second grandchild will be born and this fills me joy,however I don't feel good.....I pray for this,but I can't overcome this....
This is something i don't tell anybody,just to two of my friends,I try always to have my best mood,but nobody knows,just my family how this is ending with me,.....this is why I stop creating,this is why I stop talking to everyone....
My character infront of the people is pretty,I try nobody knows how i really feel,I feel i am going crasy...I have my neurologist,but the pilds can't stop the fear i have for the deceases or what I thing about all this,I want to clarifie,I am healty,is just in my mind....
I 'll never tell this to anybody. But I live worried because I feel very excited when I see one of your comments in my blog and I know I don't have the attention to thank your visit to my blog....
I never believed I 'll tell this to someone,but maybe it's a scream of help,if someone knows how i can handle this,if someone has experienced this episodes of fear,hypochondria and maybe knows about some excercise for this or what to do I will apreciate this with all my heart if you can tell me,I'll tell you I do yoga,but it does'nt work for me,my friend Isabel sent me some drops for the stress,she is a greate friend,she worries with me,she always support me,my friend Moni,she supports me too...
I know my second grandchild will give me so much joy as the joy my little Richard gives me,I have faith this help me ,owever it make's me nervius too..
My dear friends,I opened my hearth to all of you,if someone knows about a secret to control the emotions i will appreciate this to you....I send you all my love........Josefalaura.